I was looking at some pictures of my kids the other day and I can't believe how much they have grown in just a couple years.
Here is Payton just 2 years ago .. aww so sweet.
And here she is now in all her pre-teen gloriousness .. damn I wish I was cool like her.
Lately this has really started to freak me out. Am I going to spend my whole life doing this? Always waiting for when things are easier, better .. waiting for our real life to start? Am I going to spend my whole life waiting for my kids to grow up and listen to me?
I don't want to .. but seriously, I don't know how to stop. I do it all the time!
When it's breakfast time I'm thinking about dinner, at dinner time I'm thinking about the laundry. It's like I'm a hamster on a wheel .. always running .. for what? So I can look back when I am old and gray with my kids grown up and think .. whew .. we're finally here .. the end of our lives. NO NO NO!! This is not what I want.
For the life of me I wish I could just live in the moment. Maybe I need to take a trip to Tibet to visit the monks and do some meditation. Anybody down?